Two times a year I pull out the tissues, I bear down for an emotional day and I honor the memory of my daughter, Delaney Rianne. Today would have been her 5th birthday and I'm taking this one extra hard. She should be in preschool getting ready to go on to elementary school. I feel so robbed. We would've had a big party with friends and family and some cute theme. Instead, I went to the park and sat by her memorial dogwood and cried. I miss her so much, more so now as more time passes without another child. We are still trying and hope we have another chance, even while knowing that no one can replace this sweet angel. She taught so much to so many, even those who did not know her...she endured a long hard fight with a rare, brutal disease. I can still remember almost every single minute of her last day.
But today is a happy memory - a memory of 23 hours of labor and 5 hours of pushing (ok, that part is not a happy memory!), but then the joy of holding her for the first time and watching my mom and dad become grandparents. Of seeing Jeff crying while wearing scrubs and holding her. Of the visitors that came and the compliments on how beautiful she was. The joy that floods your heart when you have a child is indescribable; and today that is the memory I want to preserve. So here's a picture of that wonderful day of holding her.
Enjoy the new music I put at the bottom.......it is a tearjerker but so beautiful!
May you be eating cake with the angels today, girliegirl!
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